hey guys. this is something that i do every once in a while to get off my chest and i feel like i’m going to lose followers just because of this one post but i honestly don’t care. so please, feel free to unfollow me. but remember, if you unfollow me, i know you are and i’m going to tell my mommy on you! LOL. jk. ;) ;; so on friday i found out that my uncle died the day on thursday morning. idk what feel man. when i got the call from my aunt i just thought it was going to be a lazy friday with nothing going on. but reality sinks in in bits and pieces and everyone is just in a type of haze and funk. i feel nothing but sadness for my little cousins. i’ve never experienced a death… ever. but now it’s happening to me, it’s just like, “wait. what?” and it’s just… idk. my uncle was only in his 30s. him and my aunt were hs sweethearts but then got legally separated. they have done so much for me when i was little. they were the best, man. but then he changed so yeah. but my aunt, she’s has to be THE best aunt anyone could ever ask for. i got lucky. somewhere in my fucked up life, i got lucky. my aunt was there for me whatever it was. homecoming shopping, dining, talking, ect. she seriously is the best. i’ve never seen my aunt cry until today. she is such a strong person and when you see a strong person cry it’s so… idk. it makes them look more human. but my aunt was crying because of a man whom she once love and still because whatever love you had for someone, it never dies. trust me. but my uncle, he was pretty awesome. i was sorta close to him after the separation, sorta not. i’ve never thought about death in my family. never. ever. but then somewhere out of the blue, i get a call  that my uncle died. great, right? how can someone look so alive and healthy one week but then all of a sudden just.. die the next? it’s so… nerve-wracking for me. to think that it could happen to my dad next terrifies the living shit outta me. or my grandma. my fucking grandma. i love my grandma sfm. like you don’t even know. omfg. i just can’t. anyways, to all those who read it, so no one, thanks for reading and stuff. morning. :)